Kiddo

UGH… I always think of this stupid epidemic that unconditionally irritates me all the time. Everytime I log on to facebook all those conspicuousness will definitely show up on my screen.
About the underage people who use socialite community, and even worse, they declare themselves mature enough to be the part of it. It’s just so not a good circumstance when immature people think that they’re mature and talk as if they’re ten years older than me. And for what do they have to expose their private life to public. So taggy. Gross… This isn’t about jealousy. I so don’t want to be like them, of course. I detest it. I realize much my age and act like what I’m supposed to be.

Well about this mindset, I think I’m in a phase of maturity – a phase when a teenager has to leave ridiculous stuffs and think more about future and all of seriousness. I think I’m having this phase. Forget about being so kiddy, just so not my era now. All I have to contemplate is my future – a bright future, and life. Life is short and just don’t let it go to waste.
Uhh sooner or later I’m facing the unexpected graduation. After three years hanging together, I don’t want us to be apart. It’s like my worst nightmare is coming to reality. We’ve been held tightly in this togetherness. Now it’s the perfect time to sing Graduation by Vitamin-C

Argh I think I need more vocabulary expansion.

nationalism?

ok i'm going to talk something different this time, less personal, less about my daily life. more about mind set.

yesterday, officials from Euro Management came along to our school from jakarta for giving us a presentation about study aboard or sometimes popular as study overseas. to where? to europe of course. they have two options, germany or france. i was interested to go to france but my destination changed as they finished the presentation and description of benefits dwelling in germany. the college fee is very cheap. cheap cheap cheap cheap!!! even if you're lucky you don't have pay any bucks. just think about the living cost. it's a bit considerable. living cost for a month can add up to 600 euro. hmm. but they said, after the first year, the fees will no longer be a problem to you. because you're allowed to get a part time job with a tempting salary. that is able to cover up the outcome from your parents or else you don't have to ask for money to your parents anymore as the third term begins. interested so far?
awh, okay my purpose is not to promote the euro management.
i just want to tell that it's very hard to me to decide now.

the procedure is, you have to pay for the language course in jakarta. for about 6 months starting this July 2010. so you'll be leaving to europe by the january of 2011 and officially admitted to a university by the summer of 2011. how long? very longggggg. i'm not sure i can keep up...

they said, european really appreaciate and cherish each other. he also added that doctor has a common allowance as most of other jobs. That's what we cannot find in this bleepin country.

this is the difference between europe and indonesia. indonesians, not all, really care about their self importance. they only think about themselves and less think about the others. as we live in a community, in social, we should care about others instead of getting rid of weak people, or putting other people down. that's the inherited behavior that would never go change, i think. i love indonesia so much, it's my motherland, but i dislike indonesian and the way indonesian people use to think. it's not more than about selfishness, ambition, obsessiveness, and money.

it's my luck that i live in a good surrounding--a sincere, honest, nice, thoughtful, intelligence community. we just don't know yet, will we get the precise surrounding in present or a worse one? no one guarantees.

so that's what i was conceiving at the preach of "sholat jumat" this time. I could barely hear the preacher speakin so my mind had gone out somewhere further than where i spot. i'm fascinated by the simple-short presentation yesterday. it's just awesome. but i don't want to postpone my freshman-ness until next year. it just sucks...

and you know what sucks a lot more?
this feelin about someone. lol

OH! It's finally Out

Since I'm utterly in love with SNSD, or most known as Girls Generation, I've been waiting the OH! MV these days.

ahh it's soo young on the screen, my fave in SNSD.

Oh I think I'm lovin the entire MV.

LIKE BEING HIT BY A BULLET

I swear it was a rough night. It rained very very heavily. You could never imagine how harsh it was. It was just like the raining-dawn a week ago, but accompanied with rumbling thunder. It shocked me very much. I would never see such a horrible lightning like it was. Me, aman, vitha and ea got shocked and probably couldn't move and say much words, besides the expression of being shocked.

Ok, I tell you the chronologycal order.

Vitha is leaving this dawn, to grogot. She's got a job in PAMA mining factory. Ea, who is her bestfriend, wanted to make goodbye party. The night was all OK when I left the house. I didn't think much about what the wheather would be, I just left the house towards vitha's house. Oh and we brought one more passenger, aman.

The rain started raining heavily when we stopped at vitha's BF's house.

The night conducted in on plan. until, ucha texted me that she's in my house waiting for me. Hey I had just arrived in berbas when I received her text. And it's impossible for me to interrupt the show. Vitha was so hilarious. But in other side, I couldn't stop worrying about ucha. She kept saying she would stay until I get home. I couldn't even figure approximately what time I would be home. We were so flexible.

I told ea that ucha was waiting in my house. But I think she ignored my warns and continued talking verbose with vitha.

And after the shocking lightning--I swear it looked more like a flash from an SLR camera--there was a blackout. My worries raised on top. I texted her, asking how's she doin. But her reply didn't imply that she needed to see me very soon. So I let the show conducted. Until ea became very sleepy, we decided to leave vitha's house--after finishing our 'tahu tek'.

it was great, 'tahu tek' with a lightning-shocked sensation. My heart couldn't stop beating that time.

We headed towards home--the rain started to stop falling. But I still have to drive ea and aman home. And ucha was still waiting, my mom said. I drifted throught the wet road, I wouldn't think what risks I took if I exceed the speed limit. It would be harmful for both passengers. even me.

When my car stopped exactly in the front of my house, ucha had already left my house. There was only her motorcycle parked orderly in my garage, but she was already at home.

I felt really sorry to her. Til now she's kinda upset and I still don't know what to do with her motorcycle. shall I drive it to school tomorrow?

ea and aman felt guilty now.. I thought I had already told 'em about ucha, but they wouldn't notice.

please I need shrink in less than 6 hours.

I drove aman home, then ea.

one thing for sure, ea wouldn't listen to my warnings until what I warn occurs.

Weekday

weekend passed very very quickly. I didn't even enjoy my sunday. I woke at 10 am in the morning and was loafing all time in my bed while browsing the internet.

The day was so hot, and the day turned blue. Mother of friend of my died yesterday. She was bangkit's mother. He's strong though. I hope he'll be strong and keep chasing his dreams--to be an artist I think.

At the dusk, I tried to finish my 'fixing room' sequence. I started last friday and should be finished soon. haha and finally I finished it by 9pm. wkwkwk

what a rough time...

I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have to Kill You

the title I took is not related to what I'm going to write. It's a title of a novel that then I quoted here. It's... FIERCE. I love it.


It's saturday again and I had to go to additional class in the morning. How sucks..
We got the schedule paper two weeks ago. It was scheduled that the class will conduct at 8 am. But Mr. Suraji asked us to come half hour earlier last week--in case there was a briefing of Tes Daya Serap. I thought it was an exception and this saturday would be back as the printed schedule. I purposely went to school at 8, and voila. I was late. Fortunately, the first class was english, lectured by Mr. Maskud. He was nice, he allowed me to have a seat. Had it been Mr. Suraji's class, I would die for just facing him and finding excuses that he would never ever accept.

Class should end by 12.30 pm. But it didn't. People from STT-Telkom came along from their native place for just giving us Try Out. Some of us denied to do the try outs and sneakingly left the school. I couldn't leave the school, I'ma good boy. haha
I did the try out and found out it was shockingly difficult.

Today was bryan's birthday. When I was about to sleep last night, I checked my 5700 and the calendar informed me about his birthday. And soon after that, I texted him a birthday greeting. I hope I would be the first who send him birthday greets.
We asked him to celebrate it with feast. We insisted him, but he kept saying no. But no long after that, at 3 pm maybe, I received a text message announcing feast celebration tonight at koprasi. I'd like to come, but I got a feeling that tonight is not a good night. I don't know. I still have 1 hour to decide whether go or not.

ahaha. arya sent me an album containing pictures against Naburo comic--a stupid comic that being sold throughout the nation. The comic is very bad with the scent of plagiarism, bad-drawing-skill, and so on. It rates 3 out of 10.

can you smell the plagiarism? please be hating it.

although i'm not a huge fans of naruto, I feel like this comic has exceeded the limit. lol

When I woke up at the morning, I was figuring about law of conservation of energy--empirical law of physics. making it as an analogycal thought. Love is an equivalent to the law. That the loss of energy is an equivalent to the energy achieved. Just like love. The love we've just given to a person, eventhough that person doesn't give back the love, you'll still receive love from other people. Who just loved you so much. that's what I think. what do you think about it?

Friday Today

hmm. I sleep occasionally these days. even when I intended to have a rest, I couldn't fall asleep. So I slept at 12 am last night after Arya sent me a horrific pictures. He was first sending me a site, I smelt a rat at the site he gave me. I checked at the google, and my suspicious was true. It's described in list of shocking sites, a similar site to http://killerjo.net. Then I taunted on him.
But he didn't give up, he gave me a link of jpg file. I opened it but when the 10% showed up, I was sure it was pic of ghost. I closed the tab. Unfortunately, the pic was showed on the screen of Yahoo! Messenger. I hate it. I shut down my laptop and tried to sleep with a frightening thought.

I woke up at 6 and got prepared as soon as possible. There was my nephew, Kautsar. He's 2.

He played a round with me. I didn't think I would be late for just spending a while with him, but when I arrived at school, the gates were already closed and Mr. Santo was already in the front of them. I was never late before.
He brought us to the field, giving us punishment. We were being seen by hundreds pairs of eyes. Ohh, ok I'm gonna be famous soon.
Had I been late at the previous day, the reason I give would be more relevant..
Luckily we were being forgiven, all we had to do is to swear for never coming lately again. Otherwise, we'll have to clean the entire school park with brooms or even the worse, hands.

The first subject was biology.
No second, there was only parents meeting. Teacher gave them a result paper of the three try outs. I flunked one out of three. I got 8 on my chemistry.
Good I have a careless parents, or else my parents gonna kill me when they see I got 4 on math. lol


hey do you remember the 'defendant'. I finally demanded what his reason was but still curious to obtain a reasonable one. He said he was forgot. and he didn't forget to say sorry.
But I was still resentful, why would he reply with Y. He said his cell was turned off for several days. Then who did send me Y. that's what I didn't get.
Plus, he was sorry for not picking me this morning. He thought that was the reason I was late today. sorry bro, I'm not gonna take a risk for your oblivion.


I left the school much earlier. Ea asked me to see dance, but I was too sleepy. So I refused. I hate additional class at the afternoon.