OH! It's finally Out

Since I'm utterly in love with SNSD, or most known as Girls Generation, I've been waiting the OH! MV these days.

ahh it's soo young on the screen, my fave in SNSD.

Oh I think I'm lovin the entire MV.

LIKE BEING HIT BY A BULLET

I swear it was a rough night. It rained very very heavily. You could never imagine how harsh it was. It was just like the raining-dawn a week ago, but accompanied with rumbling thunder. It shocked me very much. I would never see such a horrible lightning like it was. Me, aman, vitha and ea got shocked and probably couldn't move and say much words, besides the expression of being shocked.

Ok, I tell you the chronologycal order.

Vitha is leaving this dawn, to grogot. She's got a job in PAMA mining factory. Ea, who is her bestfriend, wanted to make goodbye party. The night was all OK when I left the house. I didn't think much about what the wheather would be, I just left the house towards vitha's house. Oh and we brought one more passenger, aman.

The rain started raining heavily when we stopped at vitha's BF's house.

The night conducted in on plan. until, ucha texted me that she's in my house waiting for me. Hey I had just arrived in berbas when I received her text. And it's impossible for me to interrupt the show. Vitha was so hilarious. But in other side, I couldn't stop worrying about ucha. She kept saying she would stay until I get home. I couldn't even figure approximately what time I would be home. We were so flexible.

I told ea that ucha was waiting in my house. But I think she ignored my warns and continued talking verbose with vitha.

And after the shocking lightning--I swear it looked more like a flash from an SLR camera--there was a blackout. My worries raised on top. I texted her, asking how's she doin. But her reply didn't imply that she needed to see me very soon. So I let the show conducted. Until ea became very sleepy, we decided to leave vitha's house--after finishing our 'tahu tek'.

it was great, 'tahu tek' with a lightning-shocked sensation. My heart couldn't stop beating that time.

We headed towards home--the rain started to stop falling. But I still have to drive ea and aman home. And ucha was still waiting, my mom said. I drifted throught the wet road, I wouldn't think what risks I took if I exceed the speed limit. It would be harmful for both passengers. even me.

When my car stopped exactly in the front of my house, ucha had already left my house. There was only her motorcycle parked orderly in my garage, but she was already at home.

I felt really sorry to her. Til now she's kinda upset and I still don't know what to do with her motorcycle. shall I drive it to school tomorrow?

ea and aman felt guilty now.. I thought I had already told 'em about ucha, but they wouldn't notice.

please I need shrink in less than 6 hours.

I drove aman home, then ea.

one thing for sure, ea wouldn't listen to my warnings until what I warn occurs.

Weekday

weekend passed very very quickly. I didn't even enjoy my sunday. I woke at 10 am in the morning and was loafing all time in my bed while browsing the internet.

The day was so hot, and the day turned blue. Mother of friend of my died yesterday. She was bangkit's mother. He's strong though. I hope he'll be strong and keep chasing his dreams--to be an artist I think.

At the dusk, I tried to finish my 'fixing room' sequence. I started last friday and should be finished soon. haha and finally I finished it by 9pm. wkwkwk

what a rough time...

I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have to Kill You

the title I took is not related to what I'm going to write. It's a title of a novel that then I quoted here. It's... FIERCE. I love it.


It's saturday again and I had to go to additional class in the morning. How sucks..
We got the schedule paper two weeks ago. It was scheduled that the class will conduct at 8 am. But Mr. Suraji asked us to come half hour earlier last week--in case there was a briefing of Tes Daya Serap. I thought it was an exception and this saturday would be back as the printed schedule. I purposely went to school at 8, and voila. I was late. Fortunately, the first class was english, lectured by Mr. Maskud. He was nice, he allowed me to have a seat. Had it been Mr. Suraji's class, I would die for just facing him and finding excuses that he would never ever accept.

Class should end by 12.30 pm. But it didn't. People from STT-Telkom came along from their native place for just giving us Try Out. Some of us denied to do the try outs and sneakingly left the school. I couldn't leave the school, I'ma good boy. haha
I did the try out and found out it was shockingly difficult.

Today was bryan's birthday. When I was about to sleep last night, I checked my 5700 and the calendar informed me about his birthday. And soon after that, I texted him a birthday greeting. I hope I would be the first who send him birthday greets.
We asked him to celebrate it with feast. We insisted him, but he kept saying no. But no long after that, at 3 pm maybe, I received a text message announcing feast celebration tonight at koprasi. I'd like to come, but I got a feeling that tonight is not a good night. I don't know. I still have 1 hour to decide whether go or not.

ahaha. arya sent me an album containing pictures against Naburo comic--a stupid comic that being sold throughout the nation. The comic is very bad with the scent of plagiarism, bad-drawing-skill, and so on. It rates 3 out of 10.

can you smell the plagiarism? please be hating it.

although i'm not a huge fans of naruto, I feel like this comic has exceeded the limit. lol

When I woke up at the morning, I was figuring about law of conservation of energy--empirical law of physics. making it as an analogycal thought. Love is an equivalent to the law. That the loss of energy is an equivalent to the energy achieved. Just like love. The love we've just given to a person, eventhough that person doesn't give back the love, you'll still receive love from other people. Who just loved you so much. that's what I think. what do you think about it?

Friday Today

hmm. I sleep occasionally these days. even when I intended to have a rest, I couldn't fall asleep. So I slept at 12 am last night after Arya sent me a horrific pictures. He was first sending me a site, I smelt a rat at the site he gave me. I checked at the google, and my suspicious was true. It's described in list of shocking sites, a similar site to http://killerjo.net. Then I taunted on him.
But he didn't give up, he gave me a link of jpg file. I opened it but when the 10% showed up, I was sure it was pic of ghost. I closed the tab. Unfortunately, the pic was showed on the screen of Yahoo! Messenger. I hate it. I shut down my laptop and tried to sleep with a frightening thought.

I woke up at 6 and got prepared as soon as possible. There was my nephew, Kautsar. He's 2.

He played a round with me. I didn't think I would be late for just spending a while with him, but when I arrived at school, the gates were already closed and Mr. Santo was already in the front of them. I was never late before.
He brought us to the field, giving us punishment. We were being seen by hundreds pairs of eyes. Ohh, ok I'm gonna be famous soon.
Had I been late at the previous day, the reason I give would be more relevant..
Luckily we were being forgiven, all we had to do is to swear for never coming lately again. Otherwise, we'll have to clean the entire school park with brooms or even the worse, hands.

The first subject was biology.
No second, there was only parents meeting. Teacher gave them a result paper of the three try outs. I flunked one out of three. I got 8 on my chemistry.
Good I have a careless parents, or else my parents gonna kill me when they see I got 4 on math. lol


hey do you remember the 'defendant'. I finally demanded what his reason was but still curious to obtain a reasonable one. He said he was forgot. and he didn't forget to say sorry.
But I was still resentful, why would he reply with Y. He said his cell was turned off for several days. Then who did send me Y. that's what I didn't get.
Plus, he was sorry for not picking me this morning. He thought that was the reason I was late today. sorry bro, I'm not gonna take a risk for your oblivion.


I left the school much earlier. Ea asked me to see dance, but I was too sleepy. So I refused. I hate additional class at the afternoon.

Appeasing Day

Maybe I would probably change my statement. Sleeping in hospital was not that bad. really. I slept there last night to take care of my dad and it was all great. I just needed more time to sleep. I occasionally sleep these days. And I got 50thousand for sitting my dad. yay.
Nonetheless, I didn't take a nap this afternoon because I have 3pm schedule-additional class.
hmm. It was still a great day though.

I went to school way earlier this morning because I woke earlier too. I woke at 5.30am and left the hospital by 6am. I enjoyed the morning breeze instead of shivered. I took a bath then and prepared. I left the house wif my motorcycle (I took my motorcycle from hospital, not gonna take another risk. lol).

I brought stupid piles of papers. Papers from the previous try out, school wanted us to have our own copy because school was so stingy. It costs very expensive you knooow! 100thousand rupiah for twenty five copies, and we had scarcity of fund-there was only 33thousand rupiahs left in the wallet. How could this be...
I used my money first. They have to collect funds to replace my 100thousand.

The first subject was english. Crap, I got 8. I don't know why, I never got 9 in my english test. Never!
Maybe I'd like to have speaking test rather than reading and so on. Deciding the explicits and implicits. I hate that.
Thus, it made me upset. But it's ok, at least I don't have to do additional assignment. Dea does. lol.

Then physics, then math. About math, I thought I could finish the half, but not all of them were correct.
And I had math, again, in my additional class.
After school, Me, dea, usi, ea and ucha went to buy mpek mpek rosa. Dea gave me loan. hehe. She didn't know I had enough money to afford it. ^^
It was nice having it while talking about people. They're sooo, gossipers. How innocent I was, getting in the hole of these gossipers. Subhanallah.. haha. They even talked about my faults. Hey I am who I am, gurlz...
And it was raining, again. Bontang would never stop raining this month. That makes this small town is quite similar to Forks-fictional city where the Cullens live. I'm gonna be Jasper Hale then. *no against statements is allowed*

I came back home when it was still raining-a drizzle. I saw my aunt's car, I guessed she's in the house. Not a big deal, she's not a menace to me. hehe
We talked for several minutes, and again, I talked about my interests. Colleges, future, jobs, life, and so on.
To my surprise, she knows sort of abbrevations of University stuffs like PBS, PBUPD, utul, and so on. Things that my mother doesn't know, doesn't even want to know. Her children is still young-not any older than me, but she already knows everything. She admitted that she asked her friends. She left me some advices. Religiously and educationally. She said I need to get close to my creator. To her, it's impossible to reach a succeed without tawakkal to Allah. It's a worth advice after all.

My dad will be leaving soon tonight after his five hours-hemodialysis. yay him!

nooo,, i can't believe ♪

Ok here we go again.

Today should tend to be a good day. But it wasn't. Remembering it's the last day of third try out, it was really suppose to be a nice day.

hmm here where the story begins.
My dad was being hospitalized, and still is. Hmm, I went to hospital last monday, wif my motorcycle. But when I was heading home, it was raining very heavily. It was impossible for me to sweep over the rain, no. Besides I have important load-my mother. So I decided to go wif car. (like i said)
So I left my motorcycle at the hospital (it's been 3 days there, maybe it's sitting my dad right now).
And then, I still have to go to school as regular as usual. Ok the first day I was riding car because it was raining badly, then the second, I didn't want to.

"For several reasons" :
1st. The gasoline is going to run out.
2nd. It is a waste if I had to go alone, minimally one passenger.

So i'm figuring this thing out. I found a solution-to have a ride with my friend. I contacted him soon after that. I was giving a question, the Y/N. He gave Y. I took that as a yes.

So, in the dawn, I woke up way earlier than I did usually, in case I need to catch up with him. I took a bath. and so on. Then I waited for a while. I was worried, that till 15 mins to 7, he hadn't showed up. And I was positive he wouldn't come when I checked my watch, it's five mins to 7. How could be? I took the key and roared the engine. I drifted to school. I think he was going to be late-he always was. Or else he forgot. I was a bit upset. I murmured on my way to class. To my surprise, he was already in the class. In a blink of an eye, I turned... I don't know. Should I be mad, or what. I don't have rights. How could he say Y but he didn't make it real. what the.. I still can't demand what reason was! hahaha

"here's the defendant"

Dea caught up wif me this afternoon. We went to restaurant for lunch. It was our favorit meal-traditional fried chicken called 'Ayam Kremez'. It was satisfying, with ten thousand we can get a piece of chicken meat, one portion of rice, two fried eggplants, two pieces fried tempe, vegetables like cucumber,cabbage etc, and a sambal. Plus, a drink whether ice tea or orange squash.

While having it, we talked about our interests in future. I told her about my aim to work internationally. She told me her dreams too. She wants to be a doctor. Or else she wants to be the wife of doctor. lol. She won't find any doctor fellas in ITS-her second choice.

Then we bought pop ice.

haigoo~

1,2,3,4,5. yep, it's been 5 months i haven't posted anything here.
A.. I don't know. Maybe i have been a little busy, or maybe got affected by the most-common disease-lazy.
There are absolutely a lot of things that have done in a range of July to January. And of course I cannot give you details.

How's my daily life recently? Hmm. busy!
Utterly busy...
hey, now i'm on the senior year. It means, less than 3 months I will be leaving Bontang. Where? That's what i'm figuring out now. I'd like to go to Management School of ITB, but I don't know why, i'm in a terrible dilemma now. I was considering that this faculty I will choose is the one thing I wanted all this time. I was considering about better prospect- it means I should be successful in the future.
Don't you ask me why I suddenly put myself into Business stuff. The answer is, my dad. He prompted me to go to SBM. And I even more like his idea since I want to work internationally.
And I think this faculty will bring me those chances. Thus I think it's not so bad if I decide to be take SBM.

Senior year is mostly related to National Examination. Yep, my school had started all of the preparation, like TRY OUTS for instance. We've done two Try Outs so far, and continuing the third this week.
This try out is different from the other two. The try out is held throughout the province- east Kalimantan. Government tries to make a simulation of a real UN. Well, I hope that really works.
And the difficulty is a little more enhanced than that of the previous. I don't even know what 'Condolences' is. ahh too bad.. I was very, very sleepy this morning. When I was completing english test.. I didn't sleep well last night. Sleeping in hospital was not as cozy as sleeping at home. My dad was being hospitalized. Then I left the hospital by 5.30 am. It was raining harshly. Thunderstorm. I cannot see the way inside the car. I set the wipers at the maximum speed but it was still not enough to clean my sight.

About math test... For the god's sake I hate Calculus' Limit. They blinded me!
I only finished 25 problems, and for now.. I don't care.
I only care about tomorrow. I cannot wait for the super combination of physics and chemistry.

I want to skip this phase. All I want to do now is to get into the University I want without being dilemma. And soon after that, I could have a vacation.